Surrendering has looked like many different things through out my life. Surrendering to my plans, surrendering to my pride, surrendering to others. But right now, where I am in my life, it has taken on another form. In his patient way, God has been reminding me of my identity.
More importantly, where I find my self-worth. Looking at my life lately, my self-worth hasn’t been from Him. I find myself craving affirmation from those around me and relying on that to make me feel worthy- whether it be from my husband, from my friends, or my co workers.
Sure, it’s great to feel encouraged by those around you from time to time, but I think mine is beginning to take an unhealthy turn. It becomes unhealthy when I base my self-worth in what others around me say (or don’t say). I can see Satan take this form of encouragement that God created to build each other up and twist it to become what I base my self-worth in.
This morning as I was driving to work, I felt the all too familiar sting of not feeling enough because I didn’t feel built up enough by those around me. Soon after, I felt God say, “But who do I say you are?” Talk about humbling. Here I am putting my all into what those around me say about me when I haven’t stopped to ask Him what He says of me. Ephesians 1:4 says, “Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his love.” God made me whole and holy BY HIS LOVE. I’m not whole and holy by what my friends say about me or the compliments I receive. I’m made holy and blameless not by anything I do. I pray that the Lord continues to remind me of this verse every single day as I strive to surrender myself to the Lord and put my identity solely in Him.
CAITLIN REESE co-owns Given, a cause-conscious online boutique, with her sister-in-laws. Recently she and her husband Sam relocated to Colorado; they are enjoying being back where they met and fell in love! Connect with Caitlin at the Given website and Instagram, or on her personal Instagram account.